ILY .

2010-10-13T01:26:00.000+08:00

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2010-07-12T03:47:00.002+08:00

{ life is life. }

sorry, i've promised myself not to cry.

2010-05-16T02:46:00.002+08:00

{ smile everyday and have fun. }

die ah.

DIE AH.

sian ): .

ILY.

2010-05-06T09:42:00.000+08:00

when the day has passed.. it's never important.

2010-05-03T00:13:00.000+08:00

i'm ups and downs.

Road.

2010-04-30T00:00:00.002+08:00

{ Life is not a one-way road. }

there're many solutions to a problem. if one doesn't work out, try another. try till everything works out the way you want it.

tired of presentations! :D
but don't give up, jiayou jiayou! :D

2010-04-22T13:05:00.001+08:00

wooooolala ~~

恩.

2010-04-21T10:13:00.002+08:00

{感恩,报恩,谢恩,回恩,推恩.}

加油!

2010-04-20T22:08:00.001+08:00

I feel so exhausted.

Words .

2010-04-19T13:00:00.004+08:00

{ words can kill , words can heal . }

感恩.
知足.

:D

there's really nothing i can do.

life is a mirror to your own doings.

Things .

2010-04-15T23:36:00.002+08:00

{ even dust is something. }

:D .
smiles , and thank you to you .
you even tagged without writing down your name , how brave of you :D
thanks for your compliments . i'll bear that in mind.

ain't u honored ? i'm replying your tagg in my post .
(:

2010-04-13T21:03:00.001+08:00

smiles !

blank .

2010-04-10T00:32:00.005+08:00

if there's one thing u badly want , i know i cant do the opposite .
i'll just let you do what u want .
if i can't just persuade you to do the 'right' things ,
i'll just let you experience it.

that's what our soul seeks .
1. knowing 2. experiencing 3. being

God says we have free will .

as experiences pass us so fast , sometimes we can't catch up.
continue to move on , there's no stopping .

life , live like there is all there is .

sooner or later , we will go.
go back to God alone .
it doesn't matter right ? since we came to this world alone .

we are here now ain't we ?
having a fun life is all that everybody can choose to expect.

so just smile and jiayou your way thru' life. :D

Happily .

2010-04-10T00:10:00.002+08:00

{ spending a day , living it happily . }

:D long day today ! tiring nia !
pre-orientation camp , fun though , like the games :D

made some friends , they're nice :D

Days .

2010-04-05T12:50:00.003+08:00

{ A day passed is a day gone . }

D: .
haha .

boring days .

time .

2010-04-03T13:34:00.002+08:00

{ as time passes .. }

:D . today was fun ! :D
but tiring . had er tong activity in the early morning .
hahaha the kids are hard to control . BUT . aww . they ARE cute :D

haiiiiii .
ytd made 'couple bracelet' with christin honehhhh .
so pai sehhhhh .
got 'ring' with huiping , now got bracelet -.- .

funny ahh ..

kkay la crap .

yesterday went qx's house , at first is planned games . BUT then lehh , hahah , dont know what games to play . like no idea lehh , ite , we crapped .- so sad la . no ideas . D: .
but learnt a quite a lot of chinese words okayy ! :D

then met christin , mood swing at first but after a while okayy le . slack at mac , played (or rather , spammed) the lappy's camera . hee (: . took a lot of pictures . terr came join us afterwards . took a lot of his pictures too . ehhhhh hehe .

kay la , stop crapping . byes :D

nothing.

2010-03-31T22:53:00.004+08:00

{ nothing to say . }

do you have to despise yourself that much ?

if u really do , then goodluck . ints .

went ice-skating with yumin and jiayee . so fun , haven't skated for ages D: , fell down 6 times !! but , hahhaa made yumin fell down twice and jiayee once . HAPPIEST GIRL :D

then ate dinner with yumin , met baby and honey go play pool. yumin went home first . qh's house de pool room so cool (Y) .

fuunnnest day .

keeley:
OH CHRISTIN
I CANT LIVE WITHOUT YOU
YOU'RE MY OXYGEN
YOU'RE MY EYES
YOU'RE MY WORLD

funniest joke ever .

let.

2010-03-30T13:07:00.002+08:00

{ the only way to live is to let live . }

God knows everything .

letting it go .

there's realy nothing better isn't it ?

well ..

Moving.

2010-03-29T12:18:00.004+08:00

{ It's time to move on . }

there're times when these things will happen , once , twice or many a times .

accept it and try to move on already .

though it's hard .

but that is somehow the best way .

& i'm sorry .

blame me for all this that happen .
put all the blame on me .

thanks ..

爱自己。

2010-03-27T01:41:00.002+08:00

{爱他人之前因该药爱自己。爱自己就要学会爱他人。因为只要爱他人就是爱自己。}

you have to love yourself first before you go ahead and love others .

before you praise yourself , u praise others first .

live this world happily ,

you come to this world empty-handed , dont go back empty-handed too .

there're more for us to see in this world .

Life .

2010-03-23T23:01:00.002+08:00

{ The purpose of life is to re-create and re-member Who You Are . }

wow . i think the only thing i think is , life is too precious to be taken seriously .

have fun in life .

everything has turned out indirectly good as i planned it to be . it's a goodnews . well hey , blessing in disguise ?

Gratutide .

2010-03-17T23:09:00.001+08:00

{ gratuitude is a parent of all others . }

thanks people ! :D

Opposites.

2010-03-13T10:43:00.004+08:00

{ I am who I am , I am who I am not. }

not at all important ?

important that it exists
now it's time to focus on the studies .

crapp stuffs .

well .

vexed enough to jump down .
stupid enough to tear .

darn .
but i love my life .
i should have died a few years back .

Comparisons.

2010-03-04T12:24:00.002+08:00

{ there are no right or wrong in the absolute world. }

somehow, i dont know what i am doing .

and i think sooner or later the answer will be out .

whatever it is .
it is not important now.

maybe i'll just disappear in the face of the earth.

the desire.

Contradiction.

2010-02-22T13:00:00.003+08:00

{ get what you want and get out of my life . }

:D boo.
work work work work.
is there anything else i can do ? YES !

sorryy uhuhuh ..
ups and downs, in and out.
whatever there is, i wish to disappear.

no matter how i tried, i failed.

so, i dont care anymore ;D
is there no reason ?

Predestined .

2010-01-20T12:07:00.002+08:00

{ Everything in this life is predestined . But destiny is in your hands . }

FOR GWEN AND YUMIN .-
post . ;D

-end of post .-

whee joking .
go people go go fo tang !!!!!!! :D
GOGOGOGOGO !
wheeeeeeeeeeeeee .

working 6 days per week , tiring luh .
but i'm starting to like this job .
june jie jie very very good nahhhh .
hhahaha .

so my freedom is RESTRICTED .
cant go out as much lehhhhh ;d
never mind , at least work got money get !
wahahahhaha !

yoooo ! bye , post done ! :D

World .

2009-12-25T13:14:00.004+08:00

{Living in a circular world .}

yeapps ! my blog is dead ;SS

whee . now in shiqi's house .

oh ya oh ya ..

MERY CHRISTMAS !!!!

2009-11-20T20:26:00.000+08:00

tired !!!!

Living .

2009-11-01T21:50:00.003+08:00

{ the purpose of life is to live a life of purpose . }

currently kinda busy with olvls .
my english paper , hope i can pass , i crapped my compo .
maths was quite okay .
amath was hard .
hahhahaha but anyways , just jiayous ! :D

there're somethings in life that are predestined
i feared .
but i dont really care .

the future is unseen .

jiayou bah .

vanish .

2009-10-03T20:26:00.003+08:00

{ sometimes it's there when it's there . }

you die , it's your business .
living in this world , there'll be no regrets .
what kind of human are u exactly ?

there's nothing u can do , really .
it's gone forever .

there's no moon and stars in the cloudy sky .
i'm not sad .

my prelims results were HORRIBLE .

gone and tattered .

2009-09-03T20:14:00.002+08:00

{ trust is a word . word of trust . }

doomed , dead , gone . poof !

prelims started .. so yaaaa ..
siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
i dont want i dont want .. ;D

♥ Apocalypse .

2009-08-18T10:27:00.002+08:00

{ this world is about to end . }

yay ! hahah , i'm still at home , delaying the time i'm suppose to eat my medicine , well ...
hahha , later having oral , quite scared now ..
my english not very good , and my voice still not back yet !
hahha , well , .. ;D

never mind ..
just do my best ya ? hahah .
jiayous ! :D

♥ Armageddon .

2009-08-17T21:53:00.003+08:00

{ between the good and evil before Judgement day . }

i cant go in blogger using internet explorer !
i'm using mozilla now .

hahah i'm still sick .
i still thinking if i should take the oral tml or reschedule .
my voice is still not working , and i'm still mumbling ! and coughing ...
haiisssss . hahah . shall do my best ! :D

andddddddddd weihao ! nothing funny horh !
dont try anything ~~ !!!!!!!

smiles !

♥ Goner .

2009-08-14T20:45:00.001+08:00

{ when the world is gone , you shall stay alive . }

wahhhhh . i did something wrong . hahaha .
i think i pressed something .
never mind , fix it later bahh , i think .
lol ..

i'm sick and had been given 1 week mc .
and i dont like it , i'll be missing lots of lessons ! D:
awww ,
hahhahaha ..

♥ Thing ?

2009-08-11T21:34:00.003+08:00

{ if there's a thing u can get , what will you want ? }

i want laughter !

hahahahhaha
hahahahhahahahahahahha
ahahahahahahhahahahaha

(let me laugh , now a bit high .)

hhahahahahahahhahahahahahaha . LOL !
hahahha rflol ! :D :D:D:D:D:D:D

hahahhahahahahahhaha
okay sorry , i went night class today ! so guai right ?
but i havent study finish ! D: . hahaha

okay shall study later . ;D
ahahahhahahahahahhaa
too high to study now though .... hhahahahhahaha ;D

♥ ink .

2009-08-10T09:38:00.002+08:00

{ ink is what you need for you to doodle . }

i had sprite in my nose yesterday .
i'm going to be bored the whole day today ,(maybe)
hahaha .
siaoooooooo . i totally had nothing to say ,
gotta meet huiping and co. later .
YAWN ! I WANT MY SLEEP ! :D
okay okay , enough .

bye humans . ;D

~~it's okay if i had to let go , really .~~

♥ Paradise .

2009-08-06T00:24:00.004+08:00

{ Only animals were not expelled from Paradise . }

okay , i knew my blog is dead .
olevels are nearing . mummy lock the computer D: .
but i dont care ~
hhahaa . siaooooooo !
to tell you the truth , the one and only truth .
i haven't started studying . LOL .
i shall regret it ! buttttttttt , okay la . lol .
amath . math ! i will win you ! :DDD
tomorrow integration and kinematics test neh !
i found out that i havent study ;X
oops . hahahha .
can la , got practise .

i didnt know acting to be like this can be so fun .
let's act somemore .
hahas .

♥ Mistakes .

2009-07-22T20:46:00.002+08:00

{ be brave to admit your mistakes . }

;DD smiles . gah gah gah ;D
i dont know what to say . lol .
gah gah gah ?
okay la .

ermmmm , boring in school these few days .
there's a small ~~gossip~~ going on ~
there's still a life to go on ~ :D
la la la .
stare what stare ?

♥ gift .

2009-07-14T22:27:00.001+08:00

{ life is not a problem to be solved but a gift to be opened . }

nah ni poooooooo . i dont know what to say . hhahaha .. a lot of chinese homeworks to do , though chinese papers are already long over -.- , and i dont plan to retake it anymore , and chemistry is making me crazy .

~~just lemme go crazy then ;D~~

♥ happiness .

2009-07-12T23:38:00.005+08:00

{ happiness is all about giving love , taking risks and accepting failures . }

but , to be warned . do NOT use violence on this .

i read in a book , it wrote :

happiness is a complex matter , involving many emotions - mostly short-term , which will not necessarily make you a happy person .
joy , fun , contentment and peace of mind , for example , are all positive emotions which can contribute to your happiness , but will not make you a happy persoin by themselves - even if they appear frequently in your daily life . these emotions are in fact temporary .

the definition of happiness is not the same for everyone . it is you , yourself who will decide the definition of it .

~~smiles~~

♥ Forgive ?

2009-07-09T18:06:00.002+08:00

{ forgive and forget . }

i know i know , it's a cliche . but look into this cliche . look inside .

forgive yourself and others ,
forget the past .

what is done is done ,
what is gone is gone .
It's all in past tense now .

grief and grief , cry and cry .
But the past will never change .
Look forward to the future and move on .
Let the past go .
Dont ever make the same mistake again .

It's foolish .

♥ Confidence .

2009-07-06T21:38:00.002+08:00

{ have the confidence to live on . hope is what you need . }

;D
soooooooooooo , i have got nothing to say ;D hahha .
school's stressing ! but i dont care . at least not many homework for now . hahha .
first week is slacking .
i dont know for the second week though . but well , hahha .

aww , dont feel like blogging , so ya ..

~~maybe i'm just lying to myself .~~

♥ try

2009-06-25T19:14:00.002+08:00

{ maybe it's worth to try and try again . }

wheehee . i lost my phone and it cannot be found . i havent get a new number and i am sad . i lost all my pictures inside and i want them all back .

but well , cant be help . i'm so careless ;D .
so , too bad .

hehe . finally got to post for what seem like a long time , and i thought it's dead . haha . school's opening soon ! and my cough still havent go away . cos i've been eating all the nonsense food ;D .

and the amazing thing is , i did not study for the whole month in june , and i felt real guilty . D: . sorry books , i let you rot . it's a bad thing .

haha , sorry , a bit mad these days ;D
trying to forget some things . maybe it's good to lose my handphone ! :D

so sayonara ! :D

not .

2009-06-10T14:30:00.002+08:00

{ it's never too late to say anything .. }

wahaha ! .. wahaha . thailand ! thailand ! i'm now officially in the hotel , citin something something xDD ..

yuck , i got to go liao . cheat me ! xDD .. we blog later . if got time *whistles .*

;DD
bye !

~~i will miss you !~~

♥ Right .

2009-05-28T10:31:00.003+08:00

{ it's more important to do the right things than to do things right . }

I'm in SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL !
;D

♥ Heart .

2009-05-24T19:00:00.005+08:00

{ true smiles will always work when you show it with all your heart . }

OMG !
so sad , my mummy lock the computer , so i cant blog or do anything le ! >< ..
i now using my friend's computer .. lol ..
so sad !!! i cant watch BOF le !! >< .. hahha never mind never mind .
i can survive dee ! :D

so , maybe i will blog again after olvl's ? haha I HOPE !!! :D

people ! goodluck and jiayou for your olvls' ! :D haha ..

dont be so sad about ur mye results .. it's the olvls' that is really very important ! :D mye .. throw all the things away , and work for the future .. yes ! depend on yourself .. friends will stay by you to ceer on u , give u moral support .. but they too , will gork for their own .. in the end , we will all go separate ways .. but anyways .. treasure everythings on earth , around you now ;D .. smiles , and let problems just float pass ! :] ..

byes ..
~~have fun~~

♥ left .

2009-05-23T10:25:00.004+08:00

{ before the day when you left this world , u will be thinking about the past . }

whoohoo ! .. i just post for my results i knew so far ! hhaha .. it's horrible !

english - paper 2 : 31/50 :]
chinese - paper 1 : 42/70 , listening compre : 8/20 , paper 2 : 34/70 , overall : 58.5/100 :X
humanities - social studies : 15/50 , geography : 11.5/50 D':
physics - paper 2 : 35/65 :(
physics and chemistry mcq : 31/40 :DD
emaths - paper 1 : 52/80 , paper 2 : 45/100 ]:
amath - paper 2 : 29/100 TT
POA - paper 1 : 18/40 , paper 2 : 13/80 T____________T

thats all ! wahaha . look how good ! :D ..

~~hahahah , sadded .~~

♥ Disappointment .

2009-05-21T21:12:00.006+08:00

{ Dont let today's disappointment casts a shadow to tomorrow's dreams . }

today got back english , chinese , social studies and physics ..

did quite badly D: ..

tomorrow , WORST ! both a and e math ! POA too . wahh . fail liao fail liao ..

but , never mind .. just WORK HARDER FOR O LEVELS ! can do it one nehhs !

believe believe ! nothing is impossible ! :D

hmms , should i go mia for a while ? o.o ..

♥ confines ?

2009-05-20T20:36:00.004+08:00

{ No matter where you go or what you do, you live your entire life within the confines of your head. }

FREAK !!! my sim card ! GAHHHHHHHHHHH ! cannot send sms , but can receive , and can call .. -.- pek chek !

you know what happens after exams ?

POST EXAMS FEVER !

hahaha . and we did some crazy stuffs too ! :D

going back into the past ! :D

♥ useful .

2009-05-19T18:52:00.003+08:00

{ spend your time well with doing what is useful . }

YAY ! today no school , so i practically slept the whole day . later maybe finding huiping ! :D .. but i havent study chem ;Xx . so still thinking if i should go . hahha .

tomorrow last paper . so happy arh !! no more stress ! i like ! ;DD then after a few days rest , olvl mother tongue coming ! so scared arhhh . my chinese not very good dee .. hahah . nevermind , just do your best ! :D

~~i thought , you would ..~~

♥ happy .

2009-05-18T16:16:00.009+08:00

{ would u choose to spend your life being happy or vice versa ? }

being opitmistic is good . but if you are unusually optimistic or too opitimistic , i suspect you've got maniac depression . ;D

haha !

today emath paper still okay . poa , i am dying ! poa , i did like 2 random questions , UNFINISHED , then i went ahead to sleep ;D OWNED ! waahhaha . cannot blame .. i dont know how to do .

and i randomly changed blogskins .. ;D (again .)

oops ;DDDDD .

~~i've doubted you .~~

♥ miracles .

2009-05-17T21:38:00.014+08:00

{ believe in yourself to let miracles happen . }

lala . let the pictures talk ;D

CUTE CLOCK RIGHT ?!

arhaha , this is how i slack whole day :D .

~~nnp !~~

♥ wonderful .

2009-05-16T12:26:00.011+08:00

{ the most wonderful person is one who always smile and appreciates whatever time is left for him . }

i'm bored , so i changed blogskin . ;D

smiles nya !
i will take a picture of you when you smile [:
i will tell the world how wonderful you are .
be happy .

i'm happy !
thanks Mr Wong ! :D
thanks for your encouragement .
i will do better ! and find the fire that spark this jewel .
i will ! :D i wont let you down dee . :]
believing in myself .

~~oh boy , i missed you .~~

♥ but .

2009-05-15T18:39:00.005+08:00

{ but why ? }

haha . i shall be optimistic ! :D . hahahs .. you win ! you make me think ! well done ! :D love you !

lalala , today after exam , actually wanted to go home sleep . then after that in the end went out with monica jiaying wahahha ! hehe .. have fun and went totally crazy with them . ;D we went studying too ;D hahah . hardworking right ?! LOL ..

gotta go ! TUITION T_______________T .. sadddd ! haha never mind , jiayous !! :D

~~yay~~

♥ good .

2009-05-14T20:42:00.007+08:00

{ smiles are good . }

omg ! i found a new pimple on my chin ! wahhhhhh !

and horh and horh , i am going to flunk my poa paper 1 ! hahaha .. emath quite okay .. better than amath . but then horh .. haha , i never do finish ! WAHAHHAHAH ! i like ..

physics ! i realised i got a lot alot of things dont understand D: .. -.- .. amath , gonna flunk paper 1 ! too bad ..

and i just found out pi/3 = 60 degrees .. GAHHHHHHHHHH . wtf .. nb ! i gave away marks ! grrrr . dont come near me , i bite ! sian lah ! sorry mrs chan , i dont think i can get A for u already D': . dont kill me . i will go kill myself .

can i pull my whole hair out ? i am already losing hairs ): .. enlighten me please ! there's way too much things for me to think and the more i think the harder i concentrate .. but i can't help it nya .. you said be optimistic .. but how ?! how to be optimistic when these things always happened ?! and cycle keep repeating ?! i mean it's like i'm weak inside .. so does it mean anything ?

I'm trying very hard to not bother you everyday . it's hard you know . sorry .. ily . dont bother you already nya .. until .. i dont know when ..

~~goodbye~~

♥ indeed .

2009-05-13T18:00:00.005+08:00

{ indeed .. }

DAMN PEK HEK ARH ! amath , i am dead , never do questions worth 60 marks in total .. wow ..

haha . today sian larh ~ .. tml got poa and emath test .. prepare to flunk nya ! >< .. haisss . lol .

~~whatever ?~~

time .

2009-05-12T18:48:00.003+08:00

{ never go against time . }

sometimes i just counldn't manage to trust .. i still have doubts .

awwwwwwww

chemistry paper . one word to describe .. FAIL ! hard nehhhhhhhhhhs ! okay .. actually not very hard . is just that i forgot how to do . wahahha ! tomorrow ! amaths paper nyas ! i wonder how i am gonna pass o.o .. lol . who's the setter ?!!?!?!?

after exam , went study in lot one library with christin . library there dont usually open that early .. so .. haha . we went there straight after exam .. so reached there EARLLYYY ! went kopitiam to get a drink . after drinking , library ! lol . then study awhile , saw weilun yuhao hahaha .. christin horh ! hahaha . she damn funny nya !! i like ~ hahah . oops =Xx . then we do math and more math questions ! lol . trigo killed both of us . haha but miracle ! never die ! wahahah , ;DD lol . then after one hour or so .. the guys kena chased out from the childrens' section LOL . then went to our place -.- *whistles .* wl sat at my place .. so i need to pull another chair . troublesome . yh andy sat on the floor . poor thing . then christin and me started laughing non-stop ! wondering what;s so funny o.o .. lol ! then after for what doesnt seem so long , christin's friend came . haha , then christin have to go D: .. so sad .. so i am left with them . and then horh .. weilun so noisy =Xx .. haha he horh .. kept asking me questions -.- LOL .. but i learnt how to do math ! so good right ? xDD . hahah .then after awhile .. around 5.30 ? went off norhs . went to the toilet first . yh andy pangseh-ed , went to the library first . so , me and wl went to find them . popular ! lol , they bought some guidebooks ? lol .. i wonder if that really help ! haha . then went homed ! . there . my day .

omg , i took hours posting . haha busy ! study nyas ! xDD .

bye .

~~somehow i thought i have fallen for you once again~~

impact .

2009-05-11T19:09:00.008+08:00

{ God puts us all in each others lives to impact one another in some way. }

if it is meant to be this way
just let it be .
letting go is the hardest thing to do ,
yet it may be the right thing to do .

i am tired .
everybody else is .
i complain .
everybody else too .

who dont ?

you can ignore , why cant i ?
i can just walk away and pretend nothing happened .
nobody cares , including me .

today today today . i never study alot . D: .. how ? die ! my chemistry . prepare to flunk it arh ! :D i love it .. screw loose le .

i did a terrible mistake .. sorry . ily .

wahahha . i cant study liao larh ! wtf !!! ... -.- . claps claps ..

byes .

~~at least pretend you care !~~

treasure .

2009-05-09T13:02:00.008+08:00

{ treasure all miracles . }

living only once in this world
we born being alone .
we die alone .
we live in this world to learn .
we live in this world to reduce our karma debts .

in a book i read ,

we are born in this world

being kind , pure and innocent .

under influences ,

we change into different kind of people

with different personalities and characters.

however ,

we must learn to accept

every human beings on this world .

be kind and do not torture animals .

appreciate what God has given .

God puts us all in each others lives to impact one another in some way.

woah hehe . i am RANDOM !

later huimin belinda coming . wahehehe .

for now .. i am BORED D:

yesterdayyyyyyyyyyyy tuition . got free food :D

i like .

hahahahahahaha .

geodrey (is this how u spell ?) lol .. he gave me kinda brueno [i dont know how to spell lol .] ! :D then then haha .. but i still very very bored :D .

wahahha . spent hours baking 3 cakes . chocolate pass , durian fail ! D: wahahaha . saddddd . MY MONEY !!! fly away D: T___________T .. hahah . huimin belinda damn high norhs ! nnp ! hahah .. then then belinda kept saying 'you sick in the brain !' hahaha . damn funny arhhhs ! hahah then huimin also . hahah . i like i like ! xDD . hahaha .. then huimin just left . belinda went off first .. hahah ! whipped cream .. haiss . *shakes head !* D:

bye ! love you love you . :]

~~i hide , u seek :D~~

findings .

2009-05-08T15:38:00.009+08:00

{ find the light and you will find hope . }

believe in yourself .
believe in miracles .
have faith in God .
He will guide you through .

once i read a book . it read 'it's good to say i love you everyday .'

difference in meanings :

i love you & i am in love with you .

i want you & i need you .

wow ! today , very early reach home after two whole months ! it's a complishment .

prepare to flunk my humanities ~ i cant complete everything . but i manage to write lots ! for my geog paper , i fell asleep while doing . so i cant finish . social studies is because i took my own sweet time writing . making sure my handwriting is neat . arhaha . wasting time nya ! went out with huimin belinda for buying of ingredients . i end up dont feel like buying norhs ! >< .. dont feel like doing . arhaha . so like that norhs . sooooo , huimin belinda coming to my house tomorrow . so i am bored now ;D .. cmi . dont feel like sleeping on such a hot hot day .. :D . i must jiayou and PIA my chemistry . must must !

byes . i love you . :]

~~lets play hide and seek kayy ?~~

well .

2009-05-07T20:13:00.007+08:00

{ we only live life once . live it well . }

it is never wrong to keep quiet .
it is never wrong to be happy .
it is never wrong to go crazy .
it is never wrong to be stress .
it is never wrong to be tired .

i choked on the rice . and it is still there , in my throat . it's hard to push it down . i still survive .
thanks cheryl for ur very early early present .
thanks monica zining asy terr . i love you :]

i love you i love you i love you i love you i love you !
i make sure your eyes go blind .

mid-year exams starting real soon ! tomorrow ! my fake nightmare ! i havent touch geog .. i dont know how to survive . social studes waas okayy . i managed to memorise ! complishment .

no need to take temperatures le . yay . hooray .

olivia came back from her long trip . i am so happy . yay . welcome back .

sorry amos .

going off studying geog le . byebye .

GOODLUCK AND JIAYOU for tml mye , people !!!

~~i really love you . i really do~~

2009-05-06T22:34:00.007+08:00

today is also the day .. i felt tears for the first time .. i cant breathe .

dont they understand ? badminton is the only way for me to let out stress ?! baka .. i go out . not play but STUDY ! why cant they understand just this once ?! i only can study at night . where it is peaceful .. why cant they understand that i got my own personal problems to solve too ?! scold me for just a bloody piece of chemistry test .. cant they just understand that my own way of studying is different ?! yes . my grades are dropping so ? i cant go to my own poly course .. so ? we study for just one damn paper ! i know , i am wrong .. wrong to not study first then play . but isnt i cant stand the stress ! too much things happen ! do i want it this way ?! no ! compare with my cousin that she can plan and manage her time properly .. so ? do i care ?! i hate tuitions ! i hate .. dying is what I felt now ! why ?! cry cry cry .. that’s all I know in what I can do . CRY ! hopeless . I want to get out of this world in this life ! i want to scream ! I want to leave this world . I cant stand it anymore ! why do they like to compare , and scold me for comparing ?! ya ya . I am to be blame for everything . In what I do . everything I do is wrong .. not correct at all . they don’t even understand me . not at all . ya right scold me because they care .. SCOLD ME , LECTURE ME ! go ahead ! blame everything to me ! I am not working towards the goals I set ! I don’t care ! they don’t even ask me what happen in school , hows yr day .. and when they know I am upset , they don’t even ask me what happen .. maybe I will say out .. maybe I wont . you know I am not the one who will exactly pour all my feelings out ! you know I am not the one who will find u to talk about my problems . why ?! .. so what this is the last year for me in secondary school ?! so what ? I don’t feel like doing anything tml . I want to jump down from my block of flats . end this misery . I cant deal with stress . I just cant ! .. don’t force me to study if I don’t want to . why are ur words always so hurtful ? shoot me right in the heart . why ?! you have been saying the repeated things about me that if I am not on this earth will be good right ? no worries for you .. nothing at all . nothing .. empty .. why now ?! .. ya right u are not scolding me .. u are lecturing me .. I used the computer so late and u cant sleep . sleep larh . no one is forcing you .. don’t have to wait for me and in the end blame me for making u not to have enough sleep . and i am using the computer to study .. STUDY . get it ? i am just tired . tired of everything . nothing helps ..

tears lasted long . and flows down like a river .. I dont know how to stop .. thanks a lot .. fragile .. as good as dead ..

i shouldn't be feeling so horrible . but ..

worth-while .

2009-05-06T20:48:00.006+08:00

{ only a life lived for others is a life worth-while . }

breathless ! omg .. the badminton really tire me out D: really . but had fun .. i down there zi-highing . scream and shout until no voice D: . and play until i can skip dinner .. then jog home :D .. haha . then reached home , realised i am hungry .. cheyyy . haha .

school was still the same ! arhaha . i dont really like to go school on wednesdays . wheeee . walk in the rain to school . fun .. lol . after school have to wait for asyy . who is not very fast at all . because he got chem spa . D: .. lol . so i waited . huimin waited with me . :D . thankyou . haha . then asyy came around 3+ ? lol . actually is go je library . budden lehh dont know why .. asyy wanted bpp library . the chin guan went . i whine non-stop .. arhaha . WHINE WHINE ! .. so in the end still ~~not~~ that bad arhh . HAISSSSSSSSSSSSSS . but got learnt something lo ! a job well done . xDD . thankyewyoutoo ! ;D went home a while after that , then meet huiping for badminton ! :D went dave house first but he not in .. at badminton court liao ! so fast lorh ! unfair >< .. hhahah ;DD

i have been getting a bad stomach i think .. everytime finish food .. i will feel like vomitting .. damn sad arh ! but nothing will come out D: . terrible !

i am smiling .. do you know ? thanks lots lots for today :D ! i went so terribly high and high ! extremely high oh ! ily !

bye ! :D

~~wheeeheeee . ily ! and i mean it .~~

survives .

2009-05-05T18:11:00.007+08:00

{ it's not the strongest of the species that survives , nor the most intelligent ; it is one that is most adaptable to change . }

today is a bad day . i thought u would cheer me up , but u never did .. you never did .. but , u are forgiven :]

distant .

whatever it is , i still cannot adapt to the changes around me . do you know how horrible the feeling is ?! DO YOU ?! ups and downs , hot and cold , black and white .. i've got no mood to do anything at all . stress or not , tired or not . it doesnt matter . i just need to do things that can keep me busy . that can tire me out till i cant think of anymore things anymore . i kept thinking . thinking . thinking . and suddenly , i am numb with thoughts .

being a robot may be good . it has no emotions . nothing at all . tears will not flow as and when it likes . it can also delete its memories if it choose to forget . there will be no worries to worry , no problems to think or solve . how nice .

but , i am who i am . who cares if i am like this . stop me for all you care .

ha ha i am laughing . sarcastic ..

arhaha . thankyewberrymuxh . i am really laughing this time . :D

~~ILY a lot a lot .~~

change .

2009-05-04T20:09:00.010+08:00

{ people do change . }

we are all living in the world of lies . lies around us everywhere , where are all the honest people ?! are they dead already ? - not referrring to ASYraff :]

i am distant .

boring day in school today . blah blah blah .

quiz time :

Name 20 people you can think of right now.
Dont read the questions till you've named the 20 people.
At the end of this, chose 5 people to do this.

1. asyraf
2. jiayee
3. cheryl
4. terrance
5. ryan
6. weilun
7. rayson
8. yongsheng
9. amos
10. yumin
11. olivia
12. monica
13. fiona
14. valerie
15. huimin
16. yongliang
17. gerald
18. yingxian
19. huiping
20. fanhao

*How did you meet #14?
valerie - ermm .. i forgot lehs .. D: smile here , smile there then know le . i think is from jiayee .

*What would you do if you didnt meet #1?
asyraf - what can i do ? o.o . dig him out ? ahah .

*What if #9 and #20 dated?
amos , fanhao - arhaha GAY GAY ! . they dont even know each other o.o

*Will #6 and #17 date?
weilun , gerald - another bunch of gays ! ;D

*Describe #3.
cheryl - she is mad in the mind ;Xx ;D funny i guess ? haha

*Describe #7.
rayson - ARHAHAHHAA . no comments , too hard le . gentle~~not~~man . i heard he cut his hair till very short ;X not man liao . becomes weirdo . :D

*Know of any #12 family members?
monica - uhhh no ;D bwahhaha

*What will you do if #18 confesses to you that he/she likes you?
yingxian - aww so sweet , i love u too . ;D .. arhaha no larh ! i not les ! i think straight .

*What language does #15 speak?
huimin - some crazy language :] wahaha dont kill me !

*Who is #9 going out with?
amos - of cos is TERRANCE ! xD

*How old is #16?
yongliang - a lil' older than me ;D 17 ?

*Who is #2 favourite band / singer?
jiayee - ian's band ! :D

*You ever date #4?
terrance - never ! wahohohoho

*Would you ever date #1?
asyraf - i love him can already ! he's mine !

*Is #19 single?
huiping - from what i know , she is STILL single ;DD

*What's #10 last name?
yumin - LAI ! lai yumin !

*Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?
olivia - awww so sweet . arhaha , as i said , i am straight .

*School of #3?
cheryl - dunearn secondary school !

*Where does #6 live?
weilun - do u need me to say the whole address out ? haha he will kill me ! cck . [:

*Whats your favourite thing about #5?
ryan - he's a good punching bag :Xx .

~~i love you i love you i love you~~

taste .

2009-05-03T14:00:00.002+08:00

{ who has never tasted what is bitter does not know what is sweet . }

today sian lehs ! i dont want to say more . hahaha . moodswings a lil' .. pity the boy . haha . passed tianping his belated birthday present . shall add more maybe later ? lol .. lazy nya ! :D . siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn ! D: . lol .

reeceiving .

2009-05-02T11:46:00.005+08:00

{ It's better to give then receive . }

arhaahaa . in jurong east library now , using asy's laptop . hard to type lehs . cannot find the buttons . =Xx multitasking .. hhaha . + stoning oops .

okay , i am finally back at home .. haha had a busy day ! :D went study with asy yinghao . zining daddy was not there because she studying with may-en haha .. so went a bit crazy , trying to find chargers to charge the laptop =Xx .. lol , went crazy in msn too ! oh ya .. met joey too ! haha . 2+ and i went off . daddy still havent come .. but i got sms her ehhhs ! ~~using asy's phone~~ eh ! he know lo ! =Xx ahha . sad nya !haha .. then went tuition after that .. i was late . haha . then slack lo . after the 1.5 hours . first , i went out buy food , cos i am freaking hungry .. i nehh eat for breakfast , and lunch . i did chemistry at first .. then went out walk walk .. saw kids playing badminton , so nothing to do , i played with them . i like bullying them nya ! =Xx . then went back , stoned awhile again . then went in tuition .. crazy inside with ryan then he not high le .. he say he thinking of something . but i dont know what . haha ! shall not say ;Xx he told me , he quitting le T___T i am damn sad larh ! so we both went quiet .. hahaha . but then , after that still quite okay . went bonkers on the way home . i like ! haha . then just now something happened .. i am so so so SO happy !!! .. ;DD ILY ! good human . :D haha

before i end ..
Live as if you were to die tomorrow says:
i rather spend my saturday wiv zining
cheyyy....haha

HAHA daddy !!!

~~yay u're here .~~

success .

2009-05-01T22:27:00.002+08:00

{ behind every successful man , there is a successful woman . }

.. 1 day without talking to you , i feel weird already . thinking of u is the worst case scenario . i wonder how i survive ..

eew , those words .. haha .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIANPING !

~~missing you like always .~~

risks .

2009-04-30T20:34:00.005+08:00

{ taking risks in your life , makes it fun . }

i am too tired to post today .

haha . adding now . i am bored . short post will do .. school was slacky . POP was fun . went to meet dar after that ;D to buy tian ping's present . haha . havent make card ehhs ! no idea what to do . ANYONE ?!.. sian . lol ..

uh .. btw , thanks asyraf ! haha , my spectacles ! thanks jiayee for lending me her charger . arigatou .

~~missing you~~

alive .

2009-04-29T18:53:00.010+08:00

{ stay alive even thru' the darkest period . }

WOW .. damnn .. i am so tired .. TIRED .. school was boring ~~again~~ like always .. played badminton with elsie during pe .. my whole hand no strength -.- . irritating .. ss was okay slacky as ever .. maths too ! but suddenly rain nya .. damn cold .. i was complaining and whining .. then recess .. wait for jiayee yingxian awhile then went ahead to buy food , for them too ! cos late lerh .. so after that .. MATHS again .. then physics .. ms cao nehh come .. so we ~~copied~~ .. heehee .. poa .. i FAILED my test .. i got 5.5/20 . i failed until damn sad .. then had chinese oral . ms ng took me for my oral .. i ended up laughing a lot slack with siyi after that while waiting for 6pm to come for POP .. have fun looking at people having their napfa tests . some had expressions on their face very very VERY funny and laughed until i fell down and hit the curb of the stairs .. my butt damn pain now .. damn sad . had rehearsal after that .. fun ! i like .. but tiring larh .. i keep zi - highing .. then was damn tired in the bus until i dont feel like talking and feel like just zoning out .. lol .. i rmbed asyraf asking why i so quiet . o.o .. soooo ' cos of this reason deaaar .' and i also rmbed meng tuck saying please stop calling me a zebra in leader ? i think it's like that .. i THINK .. then i dont get what asyraf said .. sorry ! lol .. hahaha .. then reached home .. i choose to cook dinner myself ! ;P . bak kut tehh ~~ haha .

byes !

~~you are funny ! cuteee .~~

treasure .

2009-04-28T18:18:00.010+08:00

{ treasure those around you before they are gone . }

school was boring . shall NOT talk about it . had moodswings here and there . so stay clear . lol . joking nya . went out with yumin jiayee yingxian for lunch in westmall . then walk around then went back school . shall talk about napfa test ! haha . it was totally horrible . haha .

sit & reach __________37.5cm T.T
inclined pull ups _____4 ;Xx
shuttle run __________12.43 s X,X
sit ups ______________35 ;DD
standing broad jump _147 cm T__T

nya nya ! damn bad right ?! i agree .. haha .

byes !

GOODLUCK TO THOSE TAKING NAPFA TML !
and JIAYOU TO THOSE TAKING CHINESE ORAL TML ! xDD

~~how i wished i was there~~

obstacles .

2009-04-27T20:35:00.005+08:00

{ obstacles are made for u to overcome . }

whee . today school was boring .. i was late ! dint hear my 2 alarms ... and my mummy dint call me wake up because she thought i am having HOLIDAY . cool .. so reached school about 9.35 ? then kena mr ang scold .. so sad .. but heng heng i come later if not punishment nyas ! wahaha .. then after that had boring lessons . ehhhhhh . bored D: . found out that got ROD / POP reharsal . dont wanna go at first but yuqian call me to go . she fierce , so decided to go in the end .. slack after school with yumin yingxue sheryl waiting for jiayee qingxian limin to come down . eeehhhh not fast eh . but none of my business xDD .. haha . oops .. haha . then went crazy with asyraf ray weechong yinghao MAD . during the rehearsal . it was HOT sunny . lol . but still can tahan . i throw my things , specs , hp , to rayyy . so , he ended up wearing my specs , i dont know why . -.- .. lol .. rehearsed one time nya . then WEDNESDAY got another rehearsal at SIX so late larh .. nehmind . nehmind . i love it ! not very sunny marh . and plus mr ang say it's going to be a short one . so okay lo . after reharsal .. went bpp , with asyraf mengtuck weechong chinguan dont know why . so pranked chinguan was having fun . xD oops bad .. ahhaa . and i must say SORRY to mengtuck asyraf . i hope it wont leave scars . ;Xx .

yeapps should end now ! too long . haha

~~loving you is all i do ~~~

difference .

2009-04-26T16:39:00.006+08:00

{ the diffrence between the impossible and the possible lies in a person's determination . }

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr ..
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHH !
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
GAHHHHHHHHHH
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

~~i dropped real tears , but it stopped quickly . pity . how pathetic ..~~

divine .

2009-04-25T11:58:00.003+08:00

{ to err is human , to forgive is divine . }

wow .. today is freakingly warm ! i cant stand it already !!! help !
yesterday chinese paper was HARD .. paper 1 , i dont understand the question .. qords too cheem liao .. then check dictionary , they gimme back the cheem meanings .. so sad larh . so in the end i anehhow do .. GAH . fail fail FAIL ! paper 2 also many many cheem words .. i dont know how to read . horrible larh me wahaahha ..

after school went play . i nehhhhhhh study . and i still cant believe the fact that i will go there O.O naughty liao . wahaha .. neh mind neh mind .. then after that , headed off to amos house with terr and cj ? lol .. played the bow amos made , at first .. while waiting for his computer to finish loading .. then they went to play L4D .. i went out to get drinks , and come back with amos' dog love scratch-marks . wow .. then they continue playing .. i fell asleep . well done !! until 6.50 .. late for tuition , but i dont care ! left his hse around 7.10 like that . so in the end reached tuition around 8 ? haha . slack down there . ;33

~~did i mention i ever miss you ?~~

light .

2009-04-23T19:41:00.002+08:00

{ it's better to light a candle than curse the darkness . }

TODAY ENGLISH PAPER ONE WAS horrible omg omg omg ! i managed to write the report .. but i CANT manage to finish my composition !! BUSTER !!! ewwwww .. and tml is chi paper .. i am going to dieeeeeeee ..... ewww . fail fail FAIL .. how how ?! *panic .* today went yingxue's house with terr , yongsheng and choonjet ... decided not to go with jiayee they all cos like very very weird .. D: i dont know why .. sorry . then was gonna study .. in the end we SLACK off . well done .. planned not to study tml , except for english tuition . havent finish her hmwk how ?!?! i am gonna get complain for sleeping and not doing homework thats damn sad ..

by the way , went home around 6.30 , took bus with terr and yongsheng .. then got one FREAKING auntie , damn rude .. she wanted to get off the bus .. then said excuse me to me in a bo song manner , like wanna kill people like that .. then i stared at her , and excused myself politely .. (she was behind terr , whereby he cant SEE her .) just nice terr in front got person alighting then he step back , then the freaking auntie buay song .. cant she just wait there until that man has alighted ?! does she have common sense that terr cant see her ?! or even HEAR her ?! for goodness sakee . so because of her rudeness , i go du lan her .. she shook her head at us . so i ended up shooting her .. a lot of bullets .. she alighted the bus , outside the bus , she look at us shook her head again . i make sure i chop off her head .. ~~FREAKINGLY BITCHY fucker~~ .. -.- she think she bad mood big arh ?! she is just a mere typical singaporean . i bad mood cannot larh ?! wtf .. i make sure i use machine gun if she dare to complain .. bi-ach . cb , gl , knn .. GAHHHHH TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT !

bye . [ sorry about the vulgarities . ]

~~i cant .. sorry .~~

different .

2009-04-22T20:23:00.006+08:00

{ different people have different thinking , try to accept . }

*groan*
tomorrow it's the start of ENGLISH mye . and i haven't study .. -.- D: .. thats sad .. and today is so 'okay' . dont wanna talk about it . sucks . grrrrrrrrr , forget it .. duh . and i heard that peer tutoring is going to be continued next week .. maybe is the doubles ! suck . why must the school be soo evil ?! then most probably cannot find ~~fanhao~~ liao .. that's damn sad arhh ! -.- he is suppose to teach me physics .. but because of PEER TUTORING .. GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA .. BASTARD ! peer tutoring ! hate hate HATE IT ! nb , cb , knn !

and i burnt my tongue while eating dinner ._. .. eeeew .. pain .

and , i am so happy just now .. JUST .. he cared to sms me BACK ! omg ! so happy . this is rare . RARE i love it . so happy . HAPPY ! flying wahaha . -.- lame .. haha ..

JIAYOU FOR MYE , people !

~~stay and be strong~~

love .

2009-04-21T20:03:00.008+08:00

{ love people and use things , but not the other way round . }

i shall cut the story short . cos i need to do hmwk D:

i dont feel like posting all of a sudden ..
sorry ..

~~dont worry too much about it people ! jiayou !~~

i forgot i have to do a quiz -.- ..

Name ten people from the opposite gender that you know .
1. ryan lee
2. rayson
3. terrance
4. joshua
5. anson
6. gerald
7. asyraf
8. fanhao
9. weilun
10. ryan chan

How is person 2 like ?
rayson - bastard . haha no larh joking ~ gentleman !!! .. funny too ;D

What does person 6 like to eat ?
gerald - i not veryy sure . =Xx junk food ?

What is one memorable thing that happened to you concerning person 4 ?
joshua - he sent something ? but that's a long long time ago .. D:

On a scale on 1 to 10, being 1 the least intimate and 10 the most intimate, how intimate are you with person 7 ?
asyraf - 10 / 10 ! well done . (i removed the joking as asyraf requested .):P

When's the first time you met person 1 ?
ryan lee - primary school . :]

Is person 9 or 8 closer to you ?
weilun / fanhao - i would say it's 9 ? o.o

Would you live with person 3 ?
terrance - hehhh . no .. house too small . =Pp

What do you like in person 5 ?
anson - he is tall . [:

If you were to slap person 10, what reason would it be ?
ryan chan - i will slap him hard D: . haha . why would i do that ?

If you can change anything in 8, what would it be ?
fanhao - nothing . haha . i not veh close with him :D

Would it be nice if person 6 had a sex change ?
gerald - HOT ! he is a girl now !

What is person 9's hobby ?
weilun - play play and more play . =D

What are weird habits of person 4 ?
joshua - i not very very sure .

Look at person 1,5 and 9 . What are some common traits ?
ryan lee , anson , weilun - they are tall ! ;DD

Is person 2 or 10 more approachable ?
rayson / ryan chan - of course it's 2 !!!!

Person 3 did something that made you very upset . What is it ?
terrance - kill me . bang .

Now, name 10 people from the same gender and pair as many as possible .
1. yumin
2. jiayee
3. olivia
4. sheryl
5. limin
6. huimin
7. cheryl
8. monica
9. christin
10. fiona

heck , they will all kill me ! ;D so , i am not going to do that ! whhaha .

sadness .

2009-04-20T19:19:00.003+08:00

{ sadness is but a wall between two gardens . }

school was okay today , dint manage to get up early .. so neh went eat breakfast with olivia they all . lol .. went to the busstop , saw shihui , lien and ying ying . oh well .. lessons were boring as usual with ms cao nagging at the first lesson , but it doesnt really ruin our day , really . so , mr tan neh come , so ms toh was here , she was telling us people from jail . D: . MR BEH's lesson was at all not very organised .. lol .. so it's like , nehmind lor .. since today all the slacky lessons . chem was up next .. slack too . POA , free time ms goh went for syf choir . heh .. budden got poa worksheets which i neh touch . naughty .. after school , went lot one library with huimin , yumin , and olivia . ying xian came to join us later , ate at kobayashi . it was freaking nice . serious .. i love it .. neh really study in the library because of distractions and not in the mood to . so ya .. went buy food with huimin while yingxian , yumin and olivia went home . call them , wanted to say goodbye but they cant hear .. only yingxian heard , so we just said goodbye to her ;Xx

and dunearn choir got silver in syf ! :DD CONGRATULATIONS a job well done .

~~sometimes i wish u just werent there D:~~

smile .

2009-04-19T18:07:00.008+08:00

{ smiles are contagious . }

i am tired . freakingly tired , i slept but felt as if i had never slept . i am still tired . i hadnt been doing hmwk and stuffs , i lost most interest . i dont know what i am doing .. constantly day-dreaming ? unknown . results are dropping and i dont seem to care , owed teachers lots and lots of homework , and my eng and chi people is on wed and thurs . damn close . and i hadnt revise anything .. tired of everything . just want to sleep it thru' , but it's hard . why ? -.-

i find it harder to smile . i lost it . faking a smile is easy . i learnt it , just in case .

~~dead .~~

memories .

2009-04-18T13:14:00.002+08:00

{ memories are meant to be kept . }

just came back from speech dayu march march . tiring ehhhh ! need to reach school at 7 , normally i also not that early reach one .. yawn . later got tuition . and i am gonna tell mrs chan that i FAILED the probability test .. eeew i got THREE/17 .. eeeew , worst marks ever .. DISGUSTING . pui .. nehmind nehmind .. haha . i think i am gonna sleep during tuition ..

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .

~~no way am i gonna give u up~~

hope .

2009-04-17T15:35:00.003+08:00

{ hope can get us pass . }

YAWN . back at home , going out later then after that got tuition . ENGLISH ! i havent done my work D: .. shhhh ..

school was okay , i guess . had mood swings a little . but i guess its still quite acceptable .. was supp to go je library with terr to meet yumin they all , BUT , last minute i cant make it .. so ya .. sorry terr D: .. and my amaths textbook and physics text are with him , right now this minute .. i hope he remembers to bring it tml .. if not .. i CRY . joking ..

BY THE WAY , i have to go now ! wahaha . bye .

~~ur friend is irritating me . =Xx~~

pissed .

2009-04-16T22:11:00.008+08:00

{ we only live life once . }

ARGH ! freak freak freak .. ms siti and ms dewi . were freaking irritating . always gave jb like we owe u large sums of money . look down on us then say larh ! idiots . damn . another guy was freaking irritating . bastard .. and i am still freaking piss and bloody tired .

and i changed blogskin , was sick of my old one . so ya ..

had eng and ss test today . gonna flunk . my english argumentative compo was unfinished as well as ss , i wrote less than 1 page . omfg .. school was okay . rehearsal was okay except the ms siti part , and ms dewi . grrrrrr . watch out .

byes . undone homework D:

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~~i dint get to see u today .~~

changed .

2009-04-15T20:10:00.005+08:00

{ having a positive attitude is not enough . }

yawn .. my eye ! ARHHHH . neh mind -.- .. today pe , run again .. for fun ;D . then then ss , was damn tired so neh copying anything mr hisham wrote on the board .. instead went to talk with jerene and azimah . lols .. then blah blah . was boring after that . so dont wanna talk about that . i dint wanna go guides cos i am argh , damn tired .. BUT , mrs yeo released us soo late .. so i cant pon .. a lot of people neh go ! ee . but quite fun .. i became the ~~joker~~ .. -.- . hee . after cca , went home first before finding bf .. she neh come school today ! damnn sad .. lol . miss her nya ! so went her house today to pass her hmwk , and talk to her . whheeee . haha . her bf there also . ;3 . rthen chatted a while went home . bleahsss

oh i forgot .. i flunked my probability tes D: i got 3/17 T_T . damn sad .. mr beh say its lousy lorh ! awww .

BYES ! ;D a lot hmwk nehhhh do ! =Xx

~~baby u are mine ..~~

patience .

2009-04-14T22:03:00.003+08:00

{ time and tide waits for no man . }

sick & tired D:
awwww . today was boring . huimin went home early because sick .. so i have to suffer alone .. lol .. peer tutoring was horrible ! i learn nothing ;D .. so i wasted my time .. speech day march march is WORST .. damn it sia .. make us stand there for soooo freaking longggggg ! horrible , feet was burning .. mr wong down there brief us say we marching no good ): . but well . gonna step down soon ! xD . but have to stay back .. tml .. thurs D: . damnnnn it . i dont feel like staying .. torture arh ! haha .

byes ! :D

~~awwwwwww . look into my eyes !~~

follow .

2009-04-13T20:20:00.003+08:00

{ wherever you go , go with all your heart . }

tired D:
yawn . school WAS okayy today . went a bit bonkers . and chemistry test was HORRIBLE ! damn it . lols . all dont know how to do . wtf !? haisss . then poa .. we had new study group . and i dont like the new arrangement .. NOT AT ALL ! i want my pass group back ! gonna fail my poa .. even my peer tutor group is the same . the worse of all , i am the LEADER , shiiiiiit larhs .. i cant even cope my poa , how u expect me to like guide ?! HAIS !

end ! D; tired larhs . lol .

~~missing !~~

faith .

2009-04-12T18:41:00.004+08:00

{ faith moves mountains . }

Today early in the morning when church with christin at st andrew's catherdral instead of going ft .. they had easter event today and i also can can guan their church . quite nice lorhs . some of their service is held in the aircon room while some in open air . mine is held in the air con room . the service christin brought me to was in mandrin . their had a 'concert' held there today .. quite okay i thought , and the food they served was nice . had a ride home with christin and her family . they're sure nice ;D reached home thought of using com .. but in the end .. i slept till 6 =Xx hahas thats all !

byes . i havent touch any homework ;Xx

~~being with you is what i want .~~
~~and takecares horhs ! u gave me ur flu ! ee . D:~~

trusts .

2009-04-11T10:06:00.003+08:00

{ trusting when we cant see . }

BORED ! D: .. having tuition later ! :D MATHS !!!!! argh .. hhaa .

~~i MAY be seeing you later ;D~~

believe .

2009-04-10T20:27:00.006+08:00

{ things turn out the best for people who make the best of the way things turn out . }

WHEE ! i dint manage to rot at home today luckily .. went out with zining DADDY ! , asyraf and ying hao .. lols . actually still got more more people .. but last minute .. they all back out . so its like . neh mind lorh . soo , instead of watching fast and furious 4 , we went to watch cofessions of a shopaholic , quite nice lorhs ! so funnny !!! :D i LAUGHED . heng heng todayy nehhhh rot . haha . daddy so cute lorhs . haha . then asyraf and ying hao kept laughing . also dont know why . crazy people .. hah . okay .. i shall stop now ;333

byes :DD

oh hey .. i forgot to say something .. THANKS FOR UR TREATS aasyraf ! :DDDD love it . you should do that more often , and sorry , i am too violent ! :D

~~haisssssssssssss . havent seen u for long !~~

joy .

2009-04-08T19:20:00.006+08:00

{ move joyfully . }

wahaha ! thanks ASYRAF ! YOU ARE A KIND AND HELPFUL grandson who helps me in physics and projects !! :D - requested by asyraf .

wahwhee . woah . i dont know what to say . i kena cheated this early morning ! GAH ! lol . neh mind about that one , met nuer 'early' morning and we chat chat . hahas . then school was okayyy . boring as usual , ran with shi hui 2.4 . she was so stubborn ! she dont lemme push her T_T .. then hui min joined us ! lols . sheryl dint run >< . lols . run till sweaty and tired ! mr hisham dint come . free period but have to do workbook , maths was stressing ! physics was horrible , i felt very weird all over , kept washing hands , argh , then went ahead change place with jiayee , then i felt better , if not very bu zi zai .. poa was slacky .. then physics peer , called ms cao darlingg ! joker of the day .. guides was fun ! march with poles ! first time sia .. geraldine veh creative ! hahas . okay . dont want write lohs ! ;D

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees !

~~how i wish i am with u everyday .~~
~~thanks yet again .~~

helpful .

2009-04-07T19:06:00.003+08:00

{ God helps those who help themselves . }

and i am finally doing this quiz ! :D before that , tday was okay in school . lols . kena dsiao-ed by people after school . and it was raining so heavily ! then no more marching .. then in the end !!!! the rain stop .. so pissed larhs . in the end still quite okay tiring D: . went home with huiping after that :D

~~i really really want you a lot a lot ! D:~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KANG RUN AND GARYY ! :D

QUIZ TIME ~

1. The person who tagged you is

jiayee . :D

2. Your relationship with him/her is

l-p ! ;]

3. Your 5 impressions of him/her

funny ! hilarious ! joker ! humorous ! nice larh ! 'D

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you

cheer me up ! :D

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you.....

they're not worth your tears . =Xx i think .

6. If he/she become your lover you will

my l-p lehs ! [:

7. If he/she become your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be

she is perfect already !

8. If he/she become your enemy, you will

no she wont ! :D

9. If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be

Don't think she will .

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is

shake her !

11. Your overall impression of him/her is

funny !

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you?

Weird, crazy , siao !

13. The characters you love of yourself are

happy .

14. On the contrary, the characters that you hate about yourself are

woah , its not up to me to say ;3

15. The most ideal person you want to be is

i dont really know .

16. For people who care and love you, say something to them

i love you too ! muacks !

17. Pass this test to 10 persons who you wished to know how they feel about you.(Anyhow put names)

1. jiayee
2. yumin
3. olivia
4. sheryl
5. limin
6. huimin
7. yingxian
8. ryan
9. rayson
10. terrance

18. Who is no. 6 having relationship with?

huimin - ian ! :D

19. Is no. 9 a male or female?

ray - male

20. If no. 7 and no.10 together, is that a good thing?

yingxian , terr - haha ! idk .

21. What is no. 2 studying about?

Yumin - Eng, E Maths, A Maths, Lit, Chi, Comb. Phys, Comb. Bio, SS, Geog.

22.When is the last time u had a chat with no. 3?

olivia - today in school !

23. What kind of music band does no. 8 like?

ryan - he dont listen to a lot of music

24. Does no. 1 have any siblings?

jiayee - ya ! 2 younger siblings . jiahui and idk the name lol .

25. Will you woo no. 3?

olivia - i no les !

26. How about no. 7?

yingxian - this too

27. Is no. 4 single?

sheryl - totally not !

28. What is the surname of no. 5?

limin - liao ?

29. What is the hobby of no. 10?

terrance - busy with problems

30. Does no. 5 and 9 get along well?

limin and ray - they are not really that close ?

31. Where is no. 2 studying at?

Yumin - Dunearn Sec lol.

32. How about no. 8?

ryan - Same lol.

33. Talk something casually about no. 1

jiayee - funny !

34. Have you tried developing feelings for no. 6?

huimin - she is my bf ! :D

35. Where does no. 9 live at?

ray - somewhere in choa chu kang ?

36. What colour does no.4 like?

sheryl - i neh ask her . =Xx

37. Are no. 5 and 1 best friends?
limin and jiayee , they are not very very close D:

38. Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?

yingxian - nothing to say hah !

39. What is no. 6 doing now?

huimin - chatting on msn with me ! talking about ; :D

attitude .

2009-04-06T19:17:00.003+08:00

{ attitude is all it matters . }

GAH ! school was okay . not really that tired , serious .

after sch went out with shihui , then met yiting , sophia and ying ying , while waiting for the rain to stop / bus to come . wow ... i dont know what to say . except one word . wow . okay neh mind , then walk with them , reached escalator me and shihui went to pee , the three of them went up . saw weilun and gang while walking to mac , inside mac saw benedict they all . in the end decided to find yiting they all in mac . lols . then i very very very very lazy to type lerh , so eat finish , walk around , saw them again and again . and again , then headed home . i went out again cos wanna buy presents for my uncle and the people whose birthdays fall tomorrow ! ;D hahas . let me go do my things liao so byes !

look forward to tomorrow , dont know why . cos got marching ! reharsal , FULL U ! kns . haisssssss . haha . byes ;3

~~i miss you , i really do~~

life .

2009-04-05T20:12:00.007+08:00

{ our attitude towards life determines life's attitude towards us . }

saturday was okay , slept , play computer at home , then went tuition . once again stayed till 8.45 because i haven finish my log , surds and indices worksheet . haiisssss . i cant fin when tuition end too , so sad , in the end mrs chan ask me not to do and go home . cos it's late ! hah , then went home with ryan again . :] he crazy lo , bought 5 cheeseburgers for his family to eat . haha . went home after that .

today was boring , after tuition , went home sleep from 1 + to about 5 then went on find my sets worksheets . but cannot find , sorry mr beh ! D: then went makan , headed to plaza after that , then buy slippers . then went home . haha .

a bit bored off i know , multi-tasking now D: hahha :D . end post byes !

~~T___T , dont quit larhs ! i will miss u one u know ? dont quit ! i dont care , haissssss . COL ! please , dont quit horh ! ]: i dont want u to quit . you said you will try ! ;d~~

forget .

2009-04-03T17:12:00.005+08:00

{ forget what bad things happen today and look forward to tomorrow ! }

ya , just came back from the tedious marching in school . school was okay , i slept during eng period , and not supp to eat for recess beacuse have to meet mr beh , i failed my emaths T___T but i passed my amaths ! so happy ! hahas . whee . finally larhs . siannnnnnn de , lol . got to go now ! tuition ~~ . ;d

forgive .

2009-04-02T19:47:00.006+08:00

{if you dont accept people's flaws , you are not far from being inmature .}

blah blah blah

numb .

- end -

~~thanks dabian ! ;D~~

accept .

2009-04-01T23:05:00.004+08:00

story wrote to me by christin . she's good ! ;D and i learn a lot from her .

u dug a hole out of tt dirt and mud.. a very deep hole
could fit u in.. but when u raise yr hands u cant be seen.
that is how deep it is. over 2m plus.
and u r inside tt hole.
inside tt hole is just black dark area. u cant see anything.
no tools to be found as well
but when u staRe up in th sky, wad u see its a beautiful blue nick sky.
u r struggling real hard to get out of th hole to see th beautiful sky once again.
but u couldnt.
cos th hole was too steep and deep for u to climb u
just then, a person came across th hole and saw u
u were waving frantically at th person. and th person tried to pull u out frm th hole but to no avail. cos th hole was too deep and th person cant reach u.
then th person left after trying for th 3rd time and th person left, shaking his head.
cos this person did not bring any tools to help u. he came emptily.
then next, another person came and saw th same situation
this time th person brought a spade. cos he was a gold miner.
he saw u. and he lend a helping hand by helping u dig out th mud to make it easier for th height to climb out.
but digging out tt hole probably need months. cos u really made a big hole out of it!!!
th 2nd person cant wait so long. therefore shook his head and left.
just then, a 3rd person came.
this person came and saw u.
what did he do?
he stand beside th hole and laugh at u.
directly.
then, he nodded his head and his right hand reach into his backpack.
he pulled out a very long rope and some nails.
ahhh...u can tell that he was a mountain hiker.
after he took those things out, he laugh loudly at u again.
after tt, he nailed th rope on th ground, stably.
then he threw th rope down into th hole for u.
but th rope was kinda short
it reaches yr shoulder level only
u stAred at th 3rd guy and asked " why did u gimme a rope so short?"
th person just laughed and packed his stuff...
and there he goes " u figure it yrself."
and he left.
u stAre at th rope thinking it was impossible to get out like tt as th hole was superb steep and slipery
and u tried one time and another but to no avail
u keep falling and get bruises and cuts all over
u feel like giving up.

choose to stay there or climb up ?

choosing to stay there and give up:
and you stayed there , just admiring the sky , through a hole on top . soon , you will forget how vast the world is , how wonderful . you will just think the sky is always this small .

u got no life , and you will just remain where you are , no progressed have been made . and you will be stuck in there forever . nobody will help you , you wont help yourself . you will stay in your own boring life , being alone . maybe u pray for miracles , but if u dont even want to help yourself , no one can help you .

choosing to climb up:
but when u look up in th sky , u thought " i cant give up! " and you wanted to enjoy the vast blue sky again . so, you tried and tried , no matter how hard is it . then just then , one of the mud inside came loose and one piece of hard mud fall out , causing a dent and protruding the area there . you keep kicking and tepping on that particular spot , making it loose and the piece drop out . you step on it and slowly climb with all your strength and finally made it to the top . you had finally see the vast blue sky you yearning to see .

determined and never give up on your life . life is wonderful . the obstacle is just a learning process for you to learn and then finally succeed . never give up on your life , you only live this life once . once and no more . make use of it . there are others trying to survive , and be happy you are alive . feel lucky .

miracles .

2009-04-01T21:37:00.004+08:00

{ believe in miracles . }

today sian larhs ! run 2.4km today for nafa , and surprisingly , i passed ! haha , was a bit not feeling welll . and i threw my specs to wl half way .. my specs dented . so sad , after that sheryl not feeling well , so she went home first . so ya .. after school went out with oli , yumin , and yingxian eat pizza hut , broke . then went shop for pens etc in popular then study so guai right ? hahas .

i shall end post today . kinda busy ;D

future .

2009-03-31T19:36:00.003+08:00

{the past does not equals to the future .}

today , had the same workshop . hui ling started off with the first part , and i am so sorry that i slept ! sorries . her part was fine i guess , but i was damn tiring .. i woke up only when she told us to draw a mindmap based on the subjects we chose . i chose physics ! easier wahahah . jiayee was doing it with me since she got no textbook D: then we went outside to do , the library was freaking cold , couldnt stand it . so ya , yumin and olivia , with julydia were doing in the library . yumin did biology ! can u believe it ? lols . so pro .. hahas . then after that was recess ! i think , i forgot =Xx oops .. oh , then iunia's turn . she was soooooooooo cute . hahas , she is from a country full of vampires and draculas . i dont know how to spell the country though . uh ya , she was so cute , and her expressions was damn big which makes her soooo sooo cute . then lunch , had free lunch .. it was okay , got veggie , i eat the leaves nia , the rest cant finish , so ya .. then so happy amin's turn ! he was damn hilarious , wahahas . we laugh and laugh a lot . funny . laugh till here pain there pain . laugh till cant laugh anymore . hahas . the activities were fun . make us feel all xia suay .. lols . cos never read instructions carefully .

i had learnt quite a lot from this workshop , some of it i learnt before liao , but it was still as interesting , using visualization , auditory , kinethestic , and so on .. using pictures to memorise was fast , create a story of ur own and visualize . being disgusting and siao in one's own way .. nobody cares as long as u can remember .. i learnt it before and i am learning it again . fun ..

after this workshop , went with yx cj and terr to buy for ian's present ? tml's his birthday people ! ;DD and ian's daddy so heartless , dont even remember his birthday , i just love swallowing his money though .

okay enough for today . yawn byes .. !

opinions .

2009-03-30T20:05:00.004+08:00

{you dont have to be bothered by people's opinions .}

TODAY is adam khoo's workshop day ! 'YAY ' so sian can ? from really very funny to a very cold instructor talkiing . the first instrutor was very very funny . laugh till tears came out , jaw pain . lol . yumin can even say she laugh till back pain 0.o . then , laugh till cannot laugh anymore , sit till cannot sit anymore , then shut down . butt pain u know ! then very tiring also . haha . learn a lot actually , but .. i still hate mindmaps , i think its too messy . with all the drawings and stuffs .i prefer linear method and then draw .. neater . but it's just the way u think larh . maybe mindmaps may be good for u . hahas . hao le larhs ! i need to do things liao . so byes ;33 !

happiness .

2009-03-26T19:31:00.006+08:00

{anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain .}

haha . ;DD . today is not a very exciting day either . i know i know , my life is boring , which makes the whole thing boring too . but , i cant help it ;D yawn .

school was okay , very tiring , and boring of course , i even forget what lessons i had for today . okay okay , maths was stressful as usual . i wasnt in the mood to listen though ! =Xx mt , have to do the jian bao , chinese ! oh my , my chinese , sucks . shit . then geography as slacky as ever . copy notes . haha . mr kaan so good lorhs ! he helped us all file our worksheets and notes inside the file . so good , i love him ! ENGLISH IS SLACKY ! and ms khoo caught me sleepingand never do her work D; . so sad . then social studies .. also slack de ! then peer tutoring damn it . so boring lol . forget it , after finishing peer hmwk , went topaz slack and took pictures 'D T_________T i cant find my camera cable , so cannot upload pictures so sad ..

then went to slack at in the library .. he went to pei me after that . then went crazy ;DD then homed ~ ;DD

have to pia china trip's project !! and i got a lot a lot of homework to do ! and to make things worse , i dont know how to do TT . bored me liao ! D: so byes ! pardon about this boring stuffs .;D

2009-03-25T21:46:00.002+08:00

HELLO !! haha , today is just a normal day ~ and and haha , actually today suppose to have speech day reharsal . but it was raining ! AWWWWWWWW . then in the end , did something stupid in guides , haha . busy busy busy !!! :DDD